disco dreamer

Hey,, it’s been long since i last posted sumthin here..

God,, why do I always have to fall for the wrong guy? It’s been 3 times now and I don’t know what else should I do. Maybe it’s been me who’s not careful all this time, but is it wrong to enjoy the pleasure it provides?  Is it wrong just to feel the joy of the thing that you knew that it wasn’t yours at the first place? Those are the only pleasures I know, those are the only life i’ve been living. But I guess what’s aint mine would never be mine -never ever- anyway… See? I guess they’re true saying you’re blinded by the hapiness it gave, but when it stabbed, it strucked even deeper…

I hate to say this but,,

I’m no longer a dreamer, a patient girl waiting on the bench till the right train arrive.

Im gone

I’ll take the train I choose

And never look back……………

SHIT!

Ria

It’s like you’re a drug
It’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
It’s like I’m stuck
It’s like I’m running from you all the time

And I know I let you have all the powers
It’s like the only company I seek is misery all around

It’s like you’re a leech
Sucking the life from me
It’s like I can’t breathe
Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I’m never gonna quit you over time

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

It’s like I’m lost
It’s like I’m giving up slowly
It’s like you’re a ghost that’s haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I’ll never change my ways
If I don’t give you up now

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
[2x]

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

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tetapi bagi sebagian dari mereka

hanya sebagian

hidup ini adalah bagaimana mencari sesuap nasi untuk makan pagi

bagaimana keluar dari permasalahan demi senyum yang harus ia persembahkan bagi istri dan anak anaknya ketika ia pulang

bagaimana mencari teman sejati ditengah kemunafikan dunia

bagi mereka

hidup ini tidak semudah yang kau bayangkan…

**banyak banget orang yang bermasalah belakangan ini, tp klo dapet solusi yang salah, akan tambah jadi masalah

***pokonya tu cowo tai bgt! mainin gw seenaknya, makan tu EE!! lu pikir gw mau apa sama loe?? huh?? think ur self that cool? got mirror sir? freak!!

****I need some rest.. somebody gimme a break..

If you feel you’re totally fed up with all the lies and shits life bring, don’t think of givin up too soon my friend. Why? Cuz you ain’t seein nothin yet,, life is just so much more of that and it aint stoppoin just in ur teen-age. Guess what, even thou uve been thru one conditition and u think that u may never repeat you mistake again it’s hard to measure how close you are to that mistake by saying you wont repeat that again. Cuz all u know is not to do it again that makes ur eyes closed to the reality of where u are rite now.

Shit does happen cuz that’s all what life is consist of…

ps: ria sekarang sudah bisa bermain mixer2 cupu loooohhh ^^