disco dreamer

Uda lama ga buka blog,, baca2 lagi post2 jaman dulu *beuh,, brasa dah bangkotan amat yak nge post nya dari jaman kapan* hehe,,jadi snyum2 sndiri. Banyak ya tnyata yang uda dilewatin, dalam itungan stengah taun aja, ada kesel2nya, ada sneng2nya,, bhkan skarang gw dah lupa bbrapa kenapa gw ksel..

But the most important part is reading the comments, im really surprised,, like so many ppl even give a damn to what i say, God, there’s nothing more to a person than being taken an account of,,and like it or not, thats the truth. Im relieved when i know im not the only one who feels that, i mean, it doesnt mean i got a company, but,, u know, ure not alone..

Life’s getting even MORE complicated nowadays, not only with my bizzare love life, but also with my life as a normal being. Time is ticking out, goal is bluring out, breath is pacing in but kindda afraid of losing orientation, which way to head *scattered,squirling, they say*. Debating assignments, plenty, school work, loading up, organisation’s plan, neatly stacked, God..I really want to finish the up, going one by one, make the most of it, but, if only i got 48 hours in a day.,but i think God has his reason by only putting a half of it thou, and i believe its good^^.

But somehow i found relationship is only nagging me out, craving for attention *which i finally gave*shoot, another waste of time, aint it? Hff,, but dunno, im afraid to be sumone I used to be on the early high school, extrovert, antisocial, and, u know, keeping everything inside. BUT now, i think i was better off..But looking at the circumstances that its IMPOSSIBLE for me to pull out from this world, what do can i say..?Guess sometimes theres a choice u cant really choose..

Hff..

Am I supposed to exhale this much?

^^

but i believe there soo much more behind this…

God has his own way to show how blessed we are..

Hey human,,

just wait,,

hold on..

you’ll see…

piss

-ria

*God, i cant believe i said those last lines *sob* hehe..

Why do people have to meet up? Why do coincidences happen and most likely took someone into one scene of a movie, either its sad-happy-or thrilling one. Why is there such thing as time? Why are we living in the measurements of seconds, each days and weeks we’ve past, leading to a year, constructing path to digits of year. Why do people have to know that there’s a point where everything will die, everything will stop anyway, whether or not we’ve gone thru this life well. Why do people still have to fight for their life but they already know they still have to surrender it anyway..

These questions merely occur, in times when we -simply a being who’s trying to give the outmost of their life-are finally have a chance to look in the mirror and try to see, to reach what’s in it..

Is it really worth it to go cross the border to find what ure really looking for witout even knowing is it really there,,is it really is what ure looking for..?

Is there everbeen such thing as true love, where u can never define whats true and whats love is..?

Is there everbeen anything pure, anything honest when everything u do will finally get back to you..?

tell me..

piss

-ria

*God, im so lost*